may her soul rest in peace..

lately for me my life SUX!!..many things happen and many problems..sigh..then firstly about me and someone..i noe u dunwan to contact me..but tak kan u wanna avoid me in school..see me only,turn away..i wanna smile at u also cant..i just dunno wad's wrong with u and what wrong did i do..hmph...secondly yesterday the soccer match..hell sia..being the striker is difficult cause defenders will go to u..tackle u hard..when i get the ball only i trip and fall..they tackle me..kick my leg..elbowed me..sheesh..lucky the gal that injure my leg is not there..if not she really get it from me..cause i played hard too..then yesterday had family prob..especially with my dad..haiz..dunno why he's like that..come on i'm gonna be 18 soon..i'm big enough..then today sad day cause my friend passed away..its a sad thing..some more on her birthday..its very2 sad..last time my godbro and godsis passed away cause of motor accident..then my grandma too..now my friend..sigh..gonna miss them alot..may their soul rest in peace..then during lesson time,my friend from c class can go off..cause its her friend too..so i also go to my form teacher and ask for permission..then my teacher dun allow sia..i'm fucked up and cried..then i decided to go toilet,asking my other teacher permission..then she allow..and shock to saw me cried..i run to the toilet and saw my kak aishah..i broke down..then she hug me..then teacher chase after me and ask what happen?..then i explain and allow me to go..i bring syahmi along cause its our friend..went there but nabilah my sec sch fwen which is my friend who passed away sister,was not there..so i and syahmi waited there..paiseh ah..cause we didnt know anyone there..then they thought im a guy..sheesh..tomorrow got bio test..mind not there seh..cant concentrate..i have to pass in order to go jakarta with my soccer mates..wth!!..stress sia..bio i got problem in it..hope i can do it..then today go home only as usual..the same problem again..makes me sick and tired of it..sigh..im really down...i just need someone to be there for me..someone special to me..='(