unknown sickness..

last friday night went home early..cause im too sick..ard 6plus in the evening,my heart beat damn fast,my both hands tremorring,shortness of breath..then my friends allow me to go home a bit early..when reach home,it got worst..my leg start to numb..i got palpitation ah..then mum bring me to the doctor..then the doc say,go to hospital immediately..then went to a&e..so i've done my ecg..its ok but only my pulse rate damn high..its 160..and my bp low..then was admitted..they took blood test and even chest x-ray..then my result was ok..then he also dunno why all of a sudden like that..he say maybe its panic or anxiety attack..dats y..then he only give me medicine to slow my heart beat..then now i call my sickness unknown sickness..yesterday mum do kenduri for her haji..then meet all my lovely cousins..then today sux for me..im still sick..but i just don't want to show it..and yea,about this butch thing..as im one of them,i am what i am..i'm being myself..i'm not acting to be like a man or something..and yah,im happy with the way i am..I don't have to step and really look so "good looking" like a pure boy..they way they walk,behave..i don't have to do that cause im used to it..only my features and hair..its ok..cause the way im being myself,people can tell that im a butch....i just be like this,many gals come to me..and yah,gals see from our heart and not by our looks..looks can be deceiving..so yah..don't compare2..cause u don't know them..only see by looks..but dunno their character or behavior..and yah,i'm different now..if people know me well,they will realized..anything,i just wanna keep quite..no use or arguing..cause i don't myself to get sick easily..then tomorrow afternoon shift..best ah,cause can wake up late..but then bored ah at this ward..pervious ward even better..at least can talk2 to the cleaner,syamsiah or even look at pink panther..hopefully can do skills seh here..